I WANNA BE LIKE YOU!

SINCE CARTER WAS ABOUT 6 MONTHS OF AGE HE HAS SAT IN MY SINK WHILE I GOT READY! IT STARTED WHEN I HAD TO BE READY FOR WORK BY 7:00 IN THE MORNING AND CARTER DEMANDED ALL OF MY ATTENTION AND PUTTING HIM IN OUR OTHER SINK BESIDE ME AND LETTING HIM PLAY WITH ALL THE "FUN" STUFF UP THERE WAS THE ONLY WAY I COULD DO IT! HE ABSOLUTELY LOVES BEING UP THERE WITH ME! ITS THE FUNNIEST THING. HE BRUSHES HIS TEETH WITH GENE AND I TOOTH BRUSHES, BRUSHES HIS HAIR, KISSES ME AND GENE IN OUR PICTURE SITTING UP THERE, PLAYS IN MY MAKE UP. OH THAT'S ANOTHER THING...IF HE SEE'S ME PUTTING ON CHAP STICK HE COMES A RUNNING AND STICKS OUT HIS TONGUE FOR ME TO PUT SOME ON HIM. FOR SOME STRANGE REASON HE THINKS IT SHOULD GO ON HIS TONGUE. BUT OF COURSE BEING A WONDERFUL MOM I AM, I GO AHEAD AND PUT IT ON HIS TONGUE FOR HIM! I LOVE THAT LITTLE BOY! HE WATCHES GENE AND I EVERY MOVE AND 10 SECOND LATER HE'S DOING OR SAYING EXACTLY WHAT WE JUST DID OR SAID. ITS A LIL SCARY! HAVING CHILDREN CHANGES YOUR WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE! I HAVE TO PRAY TO GOD EVERY DAY FOR HIM TO MAKE ME MORE LIKE HIM BECAUSE MY CHILDREN WATCH ME AND WANT TO BE MORE LIKE ME AND THEIR DADDY EVERYDAY! WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT MY CHILD WOULD SEE ME GET A PIECE OF GUM AND THEN HIM GO TO MY PURSE AND GET HIM ONE TOO, OR SEE HIS MOMMY WEARING HIGH HEELS AND THEN TEN MINUTES LATER HE'S WALKING AROUND THE HOUSE IN THEM TOO, OR EVERY TIME I GET OUT OF THE SHOWER AND BRUSH MY TEETH HE SAY'S "TEETH TEETH" BECAUSE HE WANTS TO BRUSH HIS ALSO, OR WHEN I LOOK OVER AT THE COMPUTER AND HE'S OVER THERE JUST TYPING AWAY. ITS AMAZING HOW QUICK THEIR LIL BRAINS ABSORB ALL THIS! I GUESS THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH MY LIL BOY WANTING TO BE JUST LIKE HIS MOMMY RIGHT NOW. MAYBE WHEN JAE GETS OLD ENOUGH TO BE MY LIL MINI-ME, CARTER WILL BE INTO HUNTING AND ALL THAT WITH HIS DADDY AND BE TOO OLD FOR ME. WHICH ITS NOT LIKE HE'S JUST INTO GIRL THINGS, (WE ALREADY KNOW CARTER IS GOING TO BE A BASEBALL PLAYER. HE LOVES PLAYING BASEBALL ALREADY AND OH MY GOSH HE CAN RUN SO FAST! AMAZING!) ITS JUST A FEW THINGS HE CANT HELP BUT PICK UP ON WHEN HES SUCH A MOMMY'S LIL BOY! LIFE WITH TWO KIDS IS WONDERFUL. LIFE WITH A DAUGHTER AND A SON IS SO DIFFERENT AND GREAT! I GET THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS! I GET ALL THE DRAMA AND SASSYNESS WITH A GIRL AND ALL THE DRAMA AND DIRT, TRACTORS, FROGS AND DOGS WITH A BOY! I HAVE LEARNED TO LIKE A LIL MORE THAN I THOUGHT I DID. I WILL GO FISHING NOW AND IVE BEEN HUNTING ONCE(WHEN I WAS 7 MONTHS PREGNO) AND I DON'T MIND GETTING MUDDY. OH AND IVE LEARNED TO LOVE THOSE WET KISSES AND TO EAT FOOD FROM MY CHILD'S HAND THAT PROBABLY HAS DOG SLOBBER ALL OVER IT (JUST BECAUSE I LOVE THAT KID SO MUCH AND I WOULDN'T WANT TO BREAK HIS HEART). LOOK AT ALL THE THINGS I WOULD HAVE BEEN MISSING OUT ON IF I HAD NEVER OF MET GENE AND HAD TWO OF THE MOST WONDERFUL PRECIOUS KIDS ALIVE!!! MY HEART HURTS SO BAD WHEN I THINK THAT SOME KIDS IN AMERICA DON'T EVEN GET HALF AS MUCH ATTENTION OR LOVE AS MY KIDS DO AND I JUST COULDN'T IMAGINE THAT! HOW CAN SOMEONE NOT LOVE THEIR CHILDREN AND GIVE THEM THE HUGS AND KISSES AND ATTENTION THAT EACH AND EVERYONE OF THEM DESERVE! ITS SAD! OKAY SO YOU KNOW YOU TAKE TOO MANY PICTURES OF YOUR KIDS WHEN THEY ARE 3 MONTHS OLD AND HIDING FROM THE CAMERA! HA HA! THIS IS MY SWEET BABY JAE JUST WAKING UP AND NOT WANTING HER PICTURE MADE BUT LOOK AT HOW CUTE SHE IS, I CANT HELP IT!!! I'M JUST A REALLY PROUD MOM THAT LIKES TO SHOW OFF MY BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN!SORRY BABY JAE, GET USE TO IT. JUST START SAYING "CHEESE" LIKE YOUR BROTHER DOES EVERY TIME HE SEES A CAMERA NOW!

OKAY SO MY PRAYER IS TONIGHT " LORD JUST MAKE ME MORE LIKE YOU SO THAT I CAN BE A BETTER MOTHER AND ROLE MODEL TO MY CHILDREN! HELP ME TO TEACH THEM AND GUIDE THEM IN A WAY THAT IS PLEASING TO YOU! HELP US TO LOVE OUR NEIGHBORS AND ENEMIES. HELP US TO RAISE OUR HANDS AND BOW OUR HEADS MORE! WE KNOWS THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO LIFE THAN JUST WHAT WE CAN SEE! " WHAT A MIGHTY GOD WE SERVE!!!