THE GREATEST FAN OF YOUR LIFE !

SINCE IVE BECOME A MOM, IVE LEARNED THAT NOT EVERYONE THINKS YOUR CHILD IS THE CUTEST ON EARTH OR THINKS HE/SHE DOES NO WRONG! I'M LEARNING, THAT'S A VERY HARD THING TO OVERCOME! OF COURSE MY CHILD SHOULD WIN FIRST PLACE IN EVERYTHING, THAT'S WHAT I THINK ANYWAY! CARTER WAS IN HIS FIRST HORSE SHOW LAST SATURDAY NIGHT! HE DID SO GOOD! HIS UNCLE CASEY LED HIM IN THE ARENA AND CARTER JUST HELD ON TO THE SADDLE AND SMILED AND WAVED TO EVERYONE! IT WAS JUST PRICELESS!!! HE WON THIRD PLACE OUT OF SIX AND GOT HIS FIRST RIBBON! PRETTY IMPRESSIVE FOR HIS FIRST TIME! IVE GOT TO GO BACK TO JACKSON AND GET HIM THOSE COWBOY BOOTS THAT MY MOM SAW FOR HIM AND THEN GET HIM AND CASEY MATCHING SHIRTS AND THEN MY BABY SHOULD GO ALL THE WAY TO THE TOP! (I'M HOPING ANYWAY) I'M WRITING THIS BLOG AT 11:00 AT NIGHT BECAUSE I HOPE THAT ONE DAY WHEN I'M GONE MY CHILDREN WILL READ THIS AND KNOW THAT I WAS THE BIGGEST FAN OF THEIR LIVES! MY WHOLE LIFE REVOLVES AROUND THEM! I DO EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING FOR THEM! I WANT THE BEST FOR THEM, I WANT THEM TO BE ABLE TO EXPERIENCE EVERYTHING LIFE OFFERS, I WANT THEM TO BE AS SUCCESSFUL AS THEY POSSIBLY CAN, AND MOST OF ALL I WANT THEM TO KNOW WITHOUT A SHADOW OF DOUBT THAT I LOVED THEM WITH EVERY BEAT OF MY HEART! I LIVE EVERY DAY WITH THE THOUGHT OF "WHAT IF I DIE TODAY, WILL MY KIDS REMEMBER ME? WILL THEY KNOW THAT I LOVED THEM AND I WAS THE BIGGEST FAN OF THEIR LIVES?" I'M HOPING THOSE ANSWERS WOULD BE YES!
GENE AND I ARE IN AMAZEMENT OF HOW MUCH OUR CHILDREN GROW AND CHANGE EVERYDAY! IT CRAZY! CARTER HAS BEEN SO FUNNY LATELY! HE DOES THE FUNNIEST THINGS! HIS NEW WORDS THIS WEEK ARE "BABY, EXCUSE YOU(EVEN WHEN HE BURPS HE SAYS EXCUSE YOU,LOL),PEACE OUT,MORE, AND NO MORE" WE ARE HAVING VACATION BIBLE SCHOOL AT CHURCH THIS WEEK AND OUR CHURCH FAMILY HAS SEEN A DIFFERENT SIDE OF CARTER(IN A GOOD WAY). HE HAS COME OUT OF HIS SHELL AROUND THEM! HE IS JUST THE CENTER OF THE CROWD AND LEADER OF THE PACK!
JAYCIE IS STARTING TO HOLD HER HEAD AND FEET UP AT THE SAME TIME WHEN I LAY HER DOWN, WATCHES TV LIKE ITS GOING OUT OF STYLE(SHE WILL TURN HER HEAD AROUND FROM ANYWHERE IN THE ROOM TO SEE THE TV...CARTER NEVER WATCHED TV TILL JUST RECENTLY AND THAT'S ONLY FOR 5 MINUTES AT A TIME) SHES SMILES AND LAUGHS AND TALKS NON STOP! SHES STARTING TO GET SOME WEIGHT ON HER FINALLY!!! OH AND SINCE HER DADDY HAS BEEN HOME FOR 3 WEEKS NOW, SHE IS THE MOST SPOILED BABY EVER. HER DADDY NEVER PUTS HER DOWN AND IS ALWAYS TALKING TO HER AND SPENDING ONE ON ONE TIME WITH HER WHEN ME AND BUG ARE OUT AND ABOUT. SO NOW I CANT EVEN PUT HER DOWN UNLESS SHE IS SOUND ASLEEP OR SHE WILL LET ME KNOW ABOUT IT.LOL.. DON'T ASK ME WHAT ILL DO IN A COUPLE OF WEEKS WHEN GENE GOES BACK TO WORK AND I HAVE TWO KIDS ON MY HIP 24/7. I TAKE HER TO THE DOCTOR MONDAY FOR HER 4 MONTH CHECK UP SO ILL LET EVERYONE KNOW HOW MUCH SHE WEIGHS.
MY PRAYER IS TONIGHT " LORD, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE BLESSINGS IN MY LIFE AND EVERY SECOND AND MEMORY I GET TO SHARE WITH MY PRECIOUS CHILDREN, HUSBAND AND FAMILY! I LOVE YOU !!!"

YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE TILL ITS GONE!

TODAY MY HUSBAND HAD SURGERY ON HIS KNEE! IT WENT VERY WELL AND HE IS HOME RECOVERING! I JUST WANTED TO TAKE A MINUTE AND SAY THANK YOU TO GENE FOR ALL HE DOES! I AM LEARNING THAT I TAKE FOR GRANITE ALL THE SMALL THINGS HE ALWAYS DOES! THERE ARE A LOT OF SMALL THINGS (AT NIGHT ESPECIALLY) THAT HE DOES FOR ME THAT REALLY ADD UP! CLOSING THE BLINDS, PUTTING DOWN THE GARAGE DOOR, MAKING A BOTTLE FOR JAE, LETTING "A" OUTSIDE,LOCKING ALL THE DOORS,BRINGING ME MY WATER, AND MUCH MORE~ I'M SURE HE KNOWS I APPRECIATE ALL HE DOES BUT I'M GOING TO START TELLING HIM A LIL MORE THAT HE IS AN AMAZING HUSBAND AND I REALLY APPRECIATE ALL HE DOES FOR ME AND OUR CHILDREN! NOW ON THE OTHER HAND I'M HOPING I DON'T KILL HIM THE NEXT 6 WEEKS WHILE HES OFF OF WORK! ITS GOING TO BE A TOUGH FEW WEEKS BUT FOR BETTER OR WORSE, SICKNESS OR HEATH RIGHT? LOL ! I'M TRYING TO SYMPATHIZE WITH HIM AND UNDERSTAND HOW HARD IT WILL BE ON HIM NOT BEING ABLE TO RUN AROUND AND DO ALL HE IS USE TO DOING ALL THE TIME WITHOUT ASKING ME FOR HELP! I'M ALREADY HAVING TO GET ON TO HIM FOR BEING UP SO MUCH...HE'S SUPPOSE TO BE SITTING OR LAYING DOWN WITH HIS LEG PROPPED UP! THANKS GOODNESS THAT'S ONLY FOR THE NEXT 48 HOURS! CARTER IS SPENDING THE NIGHT WITH HIS AUNT EM AND "DA" TONIGHT! THEY OFFERED TO TAKE HIM SO GENE AND I CAN GET A GOOD NIGHTS REST! THANK YOU LORD FOR AUNTS AND UNCLES! JAE JUST HAD SOME RICE IN HER BOTTLE FEEDER FOR THE FIRST TIME AND SHE IS PASSED SMOOTH OUT SO MAYBE SHE WILL SLEEP GOOD TONIGHT! FINGERS CROSSED! I'M SO THANKFUL FOR GENE MAKING IT THROUGH SURGERY SO WELL AND RECOVERING SO WELL ALSO! I'M ALSO VERY THANKFUL FOR MY PREACHER COMING OVER AND SITTING AT THE HOSPITAL WITH ME FOR 3 HOURS TODAY AND TAKING ME OUT FOR LUNCH WHILE GENE WAS IN SURGERY! I THINK I WOULD HAVE LOST IT WHEN THE WHEELED GENE OUT OF THE ROOM TO SURGERY IF PASTOR ADAM WASN'T THERE! HE REALLY KEPT MY MIND OFF THAT AND MADE TIME GO BY A LOT FASTER!!! SO THANK YOU LORD FOR TODAY AND KEEPING MY HUSBAND SAFE AND FOR MY WONDERFUL PASTOR AND FRIEND!!! I'M SO BLESSED TO HAVE SUCH WONDERFUL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE!

SWEET DREAMS

THESE ARE A FEW PICTURES I GOT LAST NIGHT WHEN MY PRECIOUS CHILDREN WERE SOUND A SLEEP. THERE ARE NOT MANY MOMENTS WHEN THEY ARE BOTH ASLEEP AT THE SAME TIME! LOL. BUT I AM SO THANKFUL FOR THE FEW TIMES THERE ARE!

BOBBLES

ISN'T IT FUNNY HOW KIDS COME UP WITH THEIR OWN WORDS FOR THINGS? BOBBLES IS CARTER'S WORD FOR DRINK. IF YOU EVER HEAR HIM SAY BOBBLES , IT MEANS HE WANTS A DRINK. YOU KNOW A LOT OF KIDS AND/OR BABIES HAVE TO HAVE BLANKET OR PACIFIER OR A STUFF ANIMAL , LIKE A SECURITY THING...WELL CARTER'S IS HIS CUP. HE HAS TO HAVE HIS CUP ALWAYS!!! CARTER ALSO CALLS OUR DOG EMMA, "A" , HIS AUNT EM "POPPY",AND MY SISTER'S BOYFRIEND ADAM "DA". ITS SO CUTE ! ITS FUNNY HOW YOU LEARN YOUR OWN CHILD'S LANGUAGE. NO ONE ELSE CAN UNDERSTAND THEM BUT YOU SURE KNOW WHAT THEY WANT!!! ITS AMAZING! GOD MADE EACH OF OUR CHILDREN UNIQUE. HE MADE THEM ESPECIALLY FOR US! I COULDN'T IMAGINE MY LIFE WITHOUT MY CHILDREN! THEY JUST MAKE LIFE THAT MUCH SWEETER AND SO MUCH HAPPIER. I KNOW WHEN MY WHOLE FAMILY IS TOGETHER AND MY KIDS ARE RUNNING AROUND WILD AND HAVE US ALL BUSY, WE ALL STOP AND ASK EACH OTHER "WHAT DID WE DO BEFORE CARTER AND JAYCIE, IT MUST HAVE BEEN VERY QUIET AND BORING AROUND HERE" ! THAT'S SO TRUE! ITS AWESOME HOW MUCH MORE THEY MAKE OF OUR LIFE, HOW MUCH MORE CRAZY AND HECTIC LIFE GETS WITH THEM, BUT OH, SO MUCH MORE FUN AND LIVELY!!!

CARTER'S NEW WORDS HE LOVES SAYING THIS WEEK ARE UH OH,YUCK,SEE YA,THANKS,AND PEACE! ITS ADORABLE! LIFE DOESN'T GET ANY BETTER THAN THIS! THANK YOU LORD FOR MY CHILDREN AND THEIR OWN UNIQUE PERSONALITY! THEY ARE PERFECT!

I WANNA BE LIKE YOU!

SINCE CARTER WAS ABOUT 6 MONTHS OF AGE HE HAS SAT IN MY SINK WHILE I GOT READY! IT STARTED WHEN I HAD TO BE READY FOR WORK BY 7:00 IN THE MORNING AND CARTER DEMANDED ALL OF MY ATTENTION AND PUTTING HIM IN OUR OTHER SINK BESIDE ME AND LETTING HIM PLAY WITH ALL THE "FUN" STUFF UP THERE WAS THE ONLY WAY I COULD DO IT! HE ABSOLUTELY LOVES BEING UP THERE WITH ME! ITS THE FUNNIEST THING. HE BRUSHES HIS TEETH WITH GENE AND I TOOTH BRUSHES, BRUSHES HIS HAIR, KISSES ME AND GENE IN OUR PICTURE SITTING UP THERE, PLAYS IN MY MAKE UP. OH THAT'S ANOTHER THING...IF HE SEE'S ME PUTTING ON CHAP STICK HE COMES A RUNNING AND STICKS OUT HIS TONGUE FOR ME TO PUT SOME ON HIM. FOR SOME STRANGE REASON HE THINKS IT SHOULD GO ON HIS TONGUE. BUT OF COURSE BEING A WONDERFUL MOM I AM, I GO AHEAD AND PUT IT ON HIS TONGUE FOR HIM! I LOVE THAT LITTLE BOY! HE WATCHES GENE AND I EVERY MOVE AND 10 SECOND LATER HE'S DOING OR SAYING EXACTLY WHAT WE JUST DID OR SAID. ITS A LIL SCARY! HAVING CHILDREN CHANGES YOUR WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE! I HAVE TO PRAY TO GOD EVERY DAY FOR HIM TO MAKE ME MORE LIKE HIM BECAUSE MY CHILDREN WATCH ME AND WANT TO BE MORE LIKE ME AND THEIR DADDY EVERYDAY! WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT MY CHILD WOULD SEE ME GET A PIECE OF GUM AND THEN HIM GO TO MY PURSE AND GET HIM ONE TOO, OR SEE HIS MOMMY WEARING HIGH HEELS AND THEN TEN MINUTES LATER HE'S WALKING AROUND THE HOUSE IN THEM TOO, OR EVERY TIME I GET OUT OF THE SHOWER AND BRUSH MY TEETH HE SAY'S "TEETH TEETH" BECAUSE HE WANTS TO BRUSH HIS ALSO, OR WHEN I LOOK OVER AT THE COMPUTER AND HE'S OVER THERE JUST TYPING AWAY. ITS AMAZING HOW QUICK THEIR LIL BRAINS ABSORB ALL THIS! I GUESS THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH MY LIL BOY WANTING TO BE JUST LIKE HIS MOMMY RIGHT NOW. MAYBE WHEN JAE GETS OLD ENOUGH TO BE MY LIL MINI-ME, CARTER WILL BE INTO HUNTING AND ALL THAT WITH HIS DADDY AND BE TOO OLD FOR ME. WHICH ITS NOT LIKE HE'S JUST INTO GIRL THINGS, (WE ALREADY KNOW CARTER IS GOING TO BE A BASEBALL PLAYER. HE LOVES PLAYING BASEBALL ALREADY AND OH MY GOSH HE CAN RUN SO FAST! AMAZING!) ITS JUST A FEW THINGS HE CANT HELP BUT PICK UP ON WHEN HES SUCH A MOMMY'S LIL BOY! LIFE WITH TWO KIDS IS WONDERFUL. LIFE WITH A DAUGHTER AND A SON IS SO DIFFERENT AND GREAT! I GET THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS! I GET ALL THE DRAMA AND SASSYNESS WITH A GIRL AND ALL THE DRAMA AND DIRT, TRACTORS, FROGS AND DOGS WITH A BOY! I HAVE LEARNED TO LIKE A LIL MORE THAN I THOUGHT I DID. I WILL GO FISHING NOW AND IVE BEEN HUNTING ONCE(WHEN I WAS 7 MONTHS PREGNO) AND I DON'T MIND GETTING MUDDY. OH AND IVE LEARNED TO LOVE THOSE WET KISSES AND TO EAT FOOD FROM MY CHILD'S HAND THAT PROBABLY HAS DOG SLOBBER ALL OVER IT (JUST BECAUSE I LOVE THAT KID SO MUCH AND I WOULDN'T WANT TO BREAK HIS HEART). LOOK AT ALL THE THINGS I WOULD HAVE BEEN MISSING OUT ON IF I HAD NEVER OF MET GENE AND HAD TWO OF THE MOST WONDERFUL PRECIOUS KIDS ALIVE!!! MY HEART HURTS SO BAD WHEN I THINK THAT SOME KIDS IN AMERICA DON'T EVEN GET HALF AS MUCH ATTENTION OR LOVE AS MY KIDS DO AND I JUST COULDN'T IMAGINE THAT! HOW CAN SOMEONE NOT LOVE THEIR CHILDREN AND GIVE THEM THE HUGS AND KISSES AND ATTENTION THAT EACH AND EVERYONE OF THEM DESERVE! ITS SAD! OKAY SO YOU KNOW YOU TAKE TOO MANY PICTURES OF YOUR KIDS WHEN THEY ARE 3 MONTHS OLD AND HIDING FROM THE CAMERA! HA HA! THIS IS MY SWEET BABY JAE JUST WAKING UP AND NOT WANTING HER PICTURE MADE BUT LOOK AT HOW CUTE SHE IS, I CANT HELP IT!!! I'M JUST A REALLY PROUD MOM THAT LIKES TO SHOW OFF MY BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN!SORRY BABY JAE, GET USE TO IT. JUST START SAYING "CHEESE" LIKE YOUR BROTHER DOES EVERY TIME HE SEES A CAMERA NOW!

OKAY SO MY PRAYER IS TONIGHT " LORD JUST MAKE ME MORE LIKE YOU SO THAT I CAN BE A BETTER MOTHER AND ROLE MODEL TO MY CHILDREN! HELP ME TO TEACH THEM AND GUIDE THEM IN A WAY THAT IS PLEASING TO YOU! HELP US TO LOVE OUR NEIGHBORS AND ENEMIES. HELP US TO RAISE OUR HANDS AND BOW OUR HEADS MORE! WE KNOWS THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO LIFE THAN JUST WHAT WE CAN SEE! " WHAT A MIGHTY GOD WE SERVE!!!

CASEY'S HORSE SHOW !

MY LITTLE BROTHER CASEY, THAT IS 14, LOVES HORSES~ HIS WHOLE LIFE IS BUILT AROUND THEM! HE OWNS ABOUT 7 OF THEM I THINK. WHICH I REMEMBER RIDING HORSES A LOT WHEN I WAS SMALLER AND GOING TO HORSE SHOWS WITH MY AUNT SUZI! WE ALWAYS HAD A REALLY GOOD TIME! NOW MY BROTHER IS INTO THE SAME THING BUT ABOUT 10 TIMES MORE THAN WE EVER WERE. I'M SO GLAD HE HAS FOUND SOMETHING THAT HE IS SO PASSIONATE ABOUT! HE BUYS HORSES AND SELLS THEM, HE TRAINS THEM AND RIDES THEM. HES SO WONDERFUL WITH THEM! ITS AMAZING! I AM SO PROUD OF HIM! HE LOVES RIDING IN THE HORSE SHOWS THEY HAVE EVERY SATURDAY NIGHT IN BRIGHTON! SO WE TRY TO GO UP THERE AND SEE HIM! CARTER ABSOLUTELY LOVES GOING UP THERE! HE LOVES HORSES ALSO AND LOVES RIDING WITH HIS UNCLE CASEY! TONIGHT WE ALL WENT UP THERE TO SEE HIM RIDE. HE WON FIRST PLACE IN THE FIRST EVENT. WE WERE SO PROUD! MY GRANDMOTHER AND AUNT CAME DOWN FROM MISSOURI TO WATCH ALSO~ WE HAD A REALLY GOOD TIME !

ANGELS SENT BY GOD

THE OTHER MORNING AROUND 8, GENE TEXT ME AND THIS IS WHAT HE SAID "IVE WAITED AS LONG AS I COULD, HOW ARE YOU AND THE BABIES?" I WAS LIKE FINE WHY? HE TOLD ME THAT ONE OF HIS CO WORKERS SON HAD DIED IN A CAR WRECK THAT MORNING AND HE JUST HAD TO CHECK ON US! I THINK THAT TEN YEAR OLD BOY DYING REALLY GOT TO HIM! IT IS VERY SCARY THOUGH! ITS CRAZY HOW YOUR WHOLE LIFE CAN CHANGE IN A BLINK OF AN EYE! THAT'S WHY WE HAVE TO THANK GOD FOR EVERY BREATH WE TAKE AND EVERY SECOND WE GET WITH OUR LOVED ONES! I TRY TO TALK TO MY PARENT AND SISTERS AND BROTHERS EVERYDAY AND I GET ON TO GENE FOR NOT TALKING TO HIS MOM AND SISTER FOR DAYS! I JUST TOLD HIM LAST NIGHT THAT ONE DAY THEY WONT BE THERE AND HE WILL BE WISHING HE COULD JUST PICK THAT PHONE UP AND CALL THEM AGAIN ! I KNOW I TALK ABOUT THE SAME THINGS OVER AND OVER IT SEEMS LIKE BUT EVERY SINCE I BECAME A MOTHER AND EVER SINCE I LOST A COUPLE OF CLOSE FAMILY MEMBERS, IVE LEARNED TO BE VERY PASSIONATE ABOUT LIFE AND TO ENJOY EVERY SECOND!!! YOU WONT EVER GET TOMORROW BACK SO YOU BETTER MAKE EVERY SECOND COUNT...DON'T SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF...DON'T BORROW FROM TOMORROWS SUN SHINE BECAUSE TODAY MIGHT TURN GRAY. IVE HAVE LEARNED ( AND I THINK MY FAMILY HAS ALSO LEARNED THIS) THAT NO MATTER HOW GOOD SOMEONE ELSE'S LIFE LOOKS, ITS STILL NOT PERFECT...EVERYONE IS GOING THROUGH SOMETHING..IT MIGHT NOT BE THE SAME THING YOU ARE GOING THOUGH BUT THEY GOT THEIR OWN PROBLEMS TOO. WE JUST NEED TO PRAY FOR EACH OTHER AND BE THERE FOR ONE ANOTHER! AND REMEMBER...IN GOD'S EYE WE ARE ALL THE SAME, SOME DAY WE WILL ALL HAVE PERFECT WINGS! JUST LET GO AND LET GOD...HAVE FAITH AND PRAY...PRAY ABOUT EVERYTHING EVEN THE SMALL STUFF!

CARTER AND I JUST ACT GOOFY ALL THE TIME WHEN WE ARE HOME BY OURSELVES..I LET HIM DANCE ON THE COUNTERS AND WEAR SILLY THINGS..WE HAVE EVEN STARTED GETTING LIL MS. JAYCIE LAUGHING NOW! ITS THE CUTEST THING EVER! LIFE IS GREAT~

ITS THE LITTLE MOMENT THAT MAKE LIFE BIG !!!

I JUST WANTED TO TAKE A MINUTE AND EMPHASIZE ON THE NAME OF MY BLOG! I WANT TO TELL YOU A FEW OF THE LIL MOMENTS IN OUR LIFE THAT MAKE IT SO BIG ! ITS THE SMILE AND KISSES I GET IN THE MORNING WHEN MY KIDS FIRST WAKE UP, ITS THE " HOT MAMMA" WROTE ON MY MIRROR WHEN I GET OUT OF THE SHOWER FROM MY HUSBAND, ITS THE WATCHING TV AND EATING ICE CREAM WITH MY HUSBAND TILL MIDNIGHT AFTER WE GET THE KIDS TO SLEEP, ITS THE EATING DINNER WITH MY WHOLE FAMILY 4 NIGHTS OF THE WEEK, ITS THE BEAUTIFUL AND HEALTHY CHILDREN WE HAVE, ITS THE PLAYING IN THE BABY BED WITH BOTH MY CHILDREN FOR AN HOUR, ITS THE BATH TIMES AND THE BOOK READING IN THE EVENINGS, THE I LOVE YOU'S AND THE SMILES AND THE LAUGHTER'S JUST BECAUSE, ITS THE DRIVING AN HOUR TO JUST GET ICE CREAM, ITS THOSE BEAUTIFUL BRIGHT EYES LOOKING RIGHT AT ME AND KNOWING I'M THEIR WHOLE WORLD...ITS THOSE BYE BYE'S AND BLOWN KISSES WHEN THEY LEAVE, ITS THE 100 PICTURES A DAY I TAKE OF MY CHILDREN AND FAMILY, ITS THE SUNDAY MORNING'S RUSHING AROUND TRYING TO GET READY FOR CHURCH, ITS THE NOT KNOWING WHAT TOMORROW WILL BRING BUT KNOWING GOD IS IN CONTROL...ITS THE LOOKING FORWARD TO THE REST OF OUR LIVES TOGETHER...ITS THE DANCING IN THE RAIN, ITS THE TEN LOADS OF CLOTHES A WEEK I DO AND THE WASHING BOTTLE EVERY 10 SECONDS IT FEELS LIKE, ITS ALL THOSE DIRTY DIAPERS I CHANGE AND JUST SITTING THERE HOLDING AND ROCKING MY CHILDREN WHILE THEY SLEEP, ITS THE BUBBLE BATHS THAT I DON'T GET ALONE ANY MORE BUT GET TO SPEND THEM WITH MY HUSBAND AND KIDS WHICH IS SO MUCH BETTER, ITS ALL THOSE NIGHTS WE GET TO LAY IN BED WITH OUR CHILDREN AND THANK GOD FOR EVERY SECOND WE GET, ITS THE WAL MART TRIPS AND BOTH BABIES SCREAMING TO THE TOP OF THEIR LUNGS ON THE WAY HOME FROM MY MOMS AT NIGHT, ITS THE 2:00 A.M PHONE CALL TO MY MOM AND DAD ASKING THEM TO COME OVER BECAUSE MY ELECTRICITY IS OFF AND I'M SCARED, ITS THE LONG PHONE CONVERSATIONS WITH MY HUSBAND WHILE HES AT WORK AND I NEED SOMEONE TO COMFORT ME, ITS THOSE TIMES ALL THE GIRLS GET TO GO ENJOY A MOVIE TOGETHER, ITS THOSE TIMES I DON'T THINK ILL MAKE IT ANOTHER MINUTE BUT SOMEHOW GOD PUSHES ME ON, ITS THE JOY AND LOVE I HAVE WITH MY CHILDREN AND HUSBAND ON A DAY TO DAY BASIS, ITS ALL THOSE LITTLE MOMENTS THAT MAKE THIS FAMILY SO BIG !!!!!!